I can’t do anything. I can’t look at my messages. Go into my photos. Go on social media. Because I’ll see something that reminds me of him, and it’ll bring be back down, and crush me.

Why is it that the one person I depend on the most is the one person that makes me hate myself

People can be so fucking mean :) why are you so rude :) please shut up :)

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No matter how much
Coffee I drink
Gum I chew
Diet soda I guzzle
Drugs I smoke
Pills I take
No matter how much
I look in the mirror
I try to purge
I squeeze my fat
I hide in my room
No matter how much
I hate myself

I always fail.

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- madelthinbones (via madelthinbones)