Why is it that the one person I depend on the most is the one person that makes me hate myself

People can be so fucking mean :) why are you so rude :) please shut up :)

"

No matter how much
Coffee I drink
Gum I chew
Diet soda I guzzle
Drugs I smoke
Pills I take
No matter how much
I look in the mirror
I try to purge
I squeeze my fat
I hide in my room
No matter how much
I hate myself

I always fail.

"
- madelthinbones (via madelthinbones)

Losing everyone. Everything. Even my own mind.